deyb

byes:)

2010-03-22T17:19:00.002+08:00

okays.
this should be the last post.

i have been detesting this blog for the past few months.
when i open my own blog,
i see AJ, or YK, or H, or stupid ramblings and picspams about them.
i think it seems more like some stupid cf fansite.
and it makes me feel that i have nothing better to write on.

i don't wanna revamp this place.
and i did consider opening livej, or wordpress.

but in the meantime,
see you at wretch :)

xD

2010-03-15T10:20:00.001+08:00

"When NEWS and KAT-TUN did the Summary, during the rehearsal I was shocked watching Akanishi-kun: “He’s so good at dancing!”. He was super cool. I talked again to him during the last Countdown, I was very happy."
--Tegoshi

xD xD
tegoshi gains one plus point for sounding like a cf!

scorpio

2010-03-09T14:57:00.002+08:00

-loyal
-passionate
-resourceful
-observant
-dynamic
-jealous
-obsessive
-suspicious
-manipulative
-unyielding

Scorpios are fiercely independent. They are able to accomplish anything they put their mind to and they won't give up. They are perfectly suited to being on their own. They are not social butterflies like some other zodiac signs.

Relationships with Scorpio are always complicated, just like the person, their relationships are a series of extremes, they can even be downright moody for no apparent reason.
Scorpios are known for their possessiveness and jealousy but on the other hand, they are extremely loyal.
Scorpios have an excellent memory and combined with an inability to let things go, they can hold a grudge against someone who did them harm forever, in fact a Scorpio rarely if never forgives and forgets. They will even go as far as get vengeance on the person. On the other hand, they will always remember a kind gesture forever and repay it.
The best advice is to be honest with a Scorpio friend and in return, you will gain an amazing friend you will never forget and who will be loyal to you and never make false promises.

Scorpio is the most misunderstood of all astrology signs.
They like to be aware of a situation and always know what's going on, figuring this out with their probing mind, on the other hand, they are interested in the occult, the paranormal, conspiracy theories and other types of similar unknown mysteries.
They are very capable of hiding their true feelings and motivations, they often have ulterior motives or a hidden agenda.
Scorpios are very emotional, their emotions are intensified, both good emotions and bad. Negative emotions of jealousy and resentment are hallmarks of this turbulent astrology sign. Scorpios are constantly trying to understand their emotions through finding a deeper purpose in life.
Scorpios are very intuitive, but not as in a psychic sense, more as intuitive into the human mind, they have a great understanding of the mystery and the power of the human mind.
Scorpios have a fear of failure which they keep hidden extremely well, should their confrontation not be successful, or their career fail, they will simply use their adaptive skill to quickly move and and leave the bad experience behind.
One of the reasons they seem like they always accomplish their goals is because they set tangible short-term goals that they know they can accomplish, they know what they are capable of and this is what they go for.
Scorpios have powerful instincts and they trust their own gut feeling which is another reason why a Scorpio seldom fails.

Never be fake with a Scorpio, they can see it a mile away. They like frankness and honesty, speak your mind they will respect that. Scorpios are interested in almost all activities, so finding something to do should never be a problem. They are unpredictable and could change course of the date mid-way though so take these last minute changes with a smile and try something different.

likes being a Scorpio! :D

j

2010-03-01T10:27:00.005+08:00

j: im not good at talking during mc sessions.

fans: we know.
j: takki said i cannot stop the MC session till he says ok.
fans: take off your clothes
j: i already took them off in anan
fans: sing murasaki!
j: im not in the mood to sing murasaki
fans: pinky!
j: i dont feel like singing pinky
fans: hesitate!
j: no
fans: d-motion!
j: no. can i stop the mc now?

takki: NO.

xD
--

j: today yamashita & shirota.....

p: jinnnnnnnnnnnn!!!
j: shut up
j: its the second time they have been here. they were late on the first, and they only arrived at...

p: from the time the weird mic was used
j: thats not a weird mic! they spent time to make it. u apologize!
p: i'll do it later.
j: lets not bother about him
p: jinnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!
j: keep quiet.

xD
--

T: i went, but almost all the songs were in english which i didnt understand

koki: with yr english, it cant be helped.

as expected.
K's the only one who didnt turn up.

cny presents!

2010-02-21T21:39:00.006+08:00

i actually received three cny presents this year! (o.O)

from msia!
i wonder why its a pig card and a cow keychain.
when i like neither of the two animals.

from tw!
fully equipped with everything from cny cards, fashion accessories, cosmetics and masks. waha.

from sg!
a random cny present from someone who insists on giving me,
when i insisted that she sells it instead.
cny presents come in the form of uchiwas when the (ex)owner is desperately trying to get rid of her idol stuffs.
(the same way im trying to get rid of eg stuffs. xD)
but anw, thankyou.
will pass it back to u to sell when i get sick of seeing his face in my room.

okays, welcome to the family temporarily.

xD

2010-02-19T21:11:00.002+08:00

"
i know, to my fans, i am not a perfect person.
some have told me that they are disappointed in me.
there are many times when i cannot be the perfect idol and please everyone.
like i have been told "pls cut yr hair" or "stop wearing your hat"
but do you know it's easiest to manage it like that!
i like it just like that.
"

~~i shall not complain about the hair for one week.~~
xD

paparats.

2010-02-08T11:22:00.002+08:00

the talented attitude angmoh-influenced 主唱 wrote a song for his paparazzi :D
so in!

Paparats
(作詞/赤西仁,作曲/金子ノブアキ)

You wanna get a 2nd look and take a pick
Know about my life be my guest and make it up
As long as you collect that check
You don't really give a shit do you

Keep it straight I'm not losing any sleep
Just telling you how it is
Your pictures just pictures
but they arn't worth 1000 words.

There's no reason
to believe them - let go -
Just keep my name
out your mouth

It's someone else
It's someone else
thats what I feel
you failed sir
a fake me you created
I'm having fun
thank you

see umm stops and staring everyday
trying to tear a piece of me away
thats not the guy I see in the mirror
thats the guy you want
this is my life that I gave
not what you made
The rumors can't be true
Cuz I'm a clear it up for you

Paparazzi snapping shots
Writers making stories up
The proof they have is not a lot
I'm living life you all forgot just taking it
Day by day can you hear the things they say?

This is how I do it
When I do it cuz its my way
I can live and you can talk
I can run and you can talk
Nobody can make a me nobody can make
me stop
You can't be replacing me
This fabrication facing me
It still entertaining me

xD

2010-02-07T00:59:00.006+08:00

LOL.

the person on the bottom right doesn't find it funny :(
or apparently, he wasn't even paying attention.

:(:(:(:(

A Page

2010-02-07T00:24:00.001+08:00

I got 2, 5 years to tell ya'all about
25 tears I cried and
set aside for a bitch that lied
Now I sit inside can't believe that i tried
But I'd let it all go just to know
Did you really trust in me or was it just a show
Now the shows that I go get a little bit longer
And the motivation gets a little stronger

So it's on her she dropped that ball
In the summers when i fall
Cuz you made that call
I keep moving on with my mind on the goal
Nothing could a stopped this, my cups not full

Now it shows that you didn't all know
When I had to let it go
So you hear my heart fall
Let us break it down

Easily you understand
Easily I had a plan
Even if you make me fall
Just know I'm gonna take a stand

You and I You and I You and I
You and I You and I You and I

Pray for protection when i step on the stage
Let the lights of this life blast the pain away
And I know there was nothing
that you could ever tell me it's true
I had it all figured out and now I'm running it through
Stay moving dust starts to settle around

Gave up a little life just to gain a little ground
How'd make it this far without your love in my life
Carry me close to your heart
I know it's hard
An nothing can compare when the feeling is there
You got a little something something love-in like
you never had
nothing frontin just to get up and go
I'd do it all for you
and I know you know

The sound that lingered in my ears was made by your tears
That told me that you love me wanna make it last

But we only had what is done is bad
Now I look to the sky just to cry
So forgive and let's live this life that i missed
Let's hit this live say hello with a fist
We wished we knew now we can't stop it
You didn't make it I just can't top it
So I ask
will you bless me please
Expanding my territories
North and south just hear his mouth
The hands get weak and knees give out

You and I You and I You and I
You and I You and I You and I

一月三十一日

2010-01-31T14:33:00.003+08:00

薮ちゃん二十才おめでとう
もう大人になる
ずっと努力してきた。

胖子

2010-01-26T10:12:00.000+08:00

* debbie.　共勉之♥ says:
*美男真的不是我會喜歡的
crystal says:
*所以說JIN不是美男
*是胖子XD
* debbie.　共勉之♥ says:
*現在真的是胖子XDDDD

仁仁 2010一緒にダイエットしましょう～ XD

..

2010-01-22T11:09:00.003+08:00

am VERY convinced u will be getting married VERY soon.

><

:/

2010-01-22T11:06:00.002+08:00

lousy week.
lousy boss.

im back to Y/H recently.
at least Y's voice temporarily brightens my morning!

:D

2010-01-19T11:06:00.004+08:00

is proud of all the positive movie reviews :D

just read a huge spoiler summary, and im still proud!

bad.

2010-01-14T14:00:00.000+08:00

instead of a bad day
lets say im having a bad week.

that idiot never fails to spoil every single day of this week.
iwanttorantIWANTTORANTiwanttorantIWANTTORANT!!!

but,
i thank God for the presence of AJ's baka-ness to make me laugh during lunch yesterday.
and i thank God for the lunch with annie, qiner and angeline today.

simplicity makes me smile!

but after everything.
im back here again after lunch.

DAMN

明天會更好

2010-01-11T23:37:00.002+08:00

God created occasional bad days
So that we can look forward to even better tomorrows.
:)

:)

2010-01-11T16:54:00.000+08:00

i still have a very good impression of you! ♥♥♥♥

..

2010-01-06T01:43:00.006+08:00

concert documentary

the conclusion, which is a familiar sentence.
團體很難當!
i like how frank they are with their feelings
and i like how T says how he used to hate them.

its all unlike eg who talks nice rubbish over the years.

recently i like attitude people! xD
attitude pple who thinks disappearing for a few months doesnt do any damage to his group =X

yea, and i don't deny they lack of member ai
but so what.
its much better than groups who claim to be bonded and will never split
and a few years later everyone just know the truth.
pui.

.....!

2010-01-01T20:19:00.007+08:00

THIS.

ＮＹＣｂｏｙｓ正式グループ“昇格”
期間限定で結成された「Ｈｅｙ！Ｓａｙ！ＪＵＭＰ」の山田涼介（１６）、知念侑李（１６）と中山優馬（１５）らによる７人組ユニット・ＮＹＣ　ｂｏｙｓが、２０１０年も活動を続けることが３１日、分かった。所属するジャニーズ事務所のジャニー喜多川社長が明言した。

AND THIS.

i just want to shoot someone on the first day of 2010.
should i shoot jin or nyc or Y and C?
im more pissed at the nyc news,
so maybe i should just shoot johnny.

but i really love countdown shows
cos HSJ is performing without all the kids after midnight!
yay for HSB :D

dream!

2009-12-27T11:40:00.002+08:00

i dreamt sw left eg

he held this press conference in a school hall
which every fan attended
then he started distributing out handmade christmas/farewell cards to fans he knew personally

mine was an ugly purple card

he gave this speech on how kelian they were without any christmas/countdown events this year and how he finally decided to leave.
every single fan was crying
but i was so happy.
xD

and i woke up realising everything wasn't true.
=/

xD

2009-12-25T15:59:00.004+08:00

christmas pressie from vivi that made me LOL

in case u didnt get the connection.

the o'zack tastes horrible though =X

= =

2009-12-21T01:32:00.008+08:00

the reason why HSJ irritates me recently.

HSJ new song?
call this a yama/chi new song with a calafare daiki and 7 backdancers instead.

= =
what happened to my 主唱!!

*post edited and video rewatched when i was in a better mood.
- i like takaki's hair!
- did i see inoo? is he even in the video?!
- pls tell me this is a song for y/c/d's new show or new whatsoever, or there's a second part when hsb gets to sing. at least i wont be so irritated that the kids are getting the limelight and all the solo parts.
- when did ryutaro grow so tall =X

*edited again.
ok so inoo's not there.
poor boy must be busy with his uni life. =X

mc!

2009-12-18T21:53:00.003+08:00

eye infection.
down with an mc for two days.

my boss said i have been eating too many 'lack of nutrients $2 meals'
pq claims i have been reading jin's anan mag.

as a matter of fact, i have.
xD

our larder.

2009-12-16T17:12:00.002+08:00

i love food, food loves me.

we cannot live without each other.

$_$

2009-12-15T17:15:00.004+08:00

probably u all have never experienced how is it like to be broke.

the ntu times when i rushed to and fro within 2 hours to eat bread at home.
so that i could save up on a lunch.
~~and alot of those money went to energy, which i kind of regret now.~~

and now.
im not exactly broke now.
but trying to curb my spending,
i have been depending heavily on my rebate cards,
searching for $2 meals every lunch time,
drinking free milk in the company instead of buying breakfast.
just looking for any other chance to add on to my savings.

maybe you look down on me and my ways.
but as i said.
you all have never experienced being poor.

12dec.

2009-12-12T23:36:00.005+08:00

how did i forget that it starts today?

i thought i was cf enough to write it down somewhere.
but apparently i didnt.

oh, so im supposed to be in jp today.

933 哈本營 played AJ's song today.

and i cannot tahan them saying A.KA.NI.SHI in such a singaporean accent.
><

xD

2009-12-08T15:12:00.000+08:00

and this kept me awake for the rest of my lesson.

omedetou.

2009-12-02T00:53:00.004+08:00

１９才の誕生日おめでとう
今日もジャニーズに７周年、おめでとう。
速く大人になったら xD

fly

2009-12-01T15:06:00.001+08:00

everytime i make holiday/leave plans for next year.
i will ask myself first:
will i even be here still, on this date?

that's bad isnt it.
><

..

2009-12-01T01:41:00.002+08:00

someone smsed in to 933 and said he/she has been watering a plant for two days
and just found out that its a fake plant.

i burst out laughing

and 5 minutes later
i realised i deleted my file of taguchi on shounen.
wattheheck
i havent even finished watching

*stabs myself*

x)

2009-11-29T13:44:00.002+08:00

i chanced upon a secondary school cf's blog.
who dreams of staying in jp and attending horikoshi high.

i let out a laugh to myself
and wondered if she will regret saying all this years later.

x)

poor.

2009-11-28T18:38:00.001+08:00

im so poor.
T________T

錢在哪里~~~~

ごくせん

2009-11-26T10:20:00.001+08:00

33 episodes from three seasons.
adding the 3 SPs plus movie makes it 37.

so after forwarding thru most fighting scenes,
i have watched 37 episodes of gokusen
which means 37 predictable scenes on how yankumi always appears at the right time, with the same music, same pose, same words.

movie was so lousy though.
more of a reunion of everyone from the three seasons
whereby people just turned up randomly.
i don't even meet more than 5 people i know when im out for an entire day
how come she meets so many of her ex-students in a single street?

~~okay its just a show~~ :x
still, i'd rather they use SP3 as a movie instead.

haruma's pretty white strands were gone in SP and movie :(

kame was extra, takaki too
and tama used to be in jj express, no wonder the familiarity.

..

2009-11-23T16:24:00.003+08:00

WHY always NYC BOYS.
~~irritated.~~

~~and i dont care if its NYC or nYc.~~
~~irritated.~~

i have cf friends. xD

2009-11-15T01:38:00.000+08:00

scrap tcher.

2009-11-12T00:32:00.006+08:00

- stupid plot with stupid ending
- a silly jdrama thats just trying to promote the coolness/cuteness of those 3
- yuto is good at playing goody-two-shoes
- they don't have to get a stuntman for chinen's fighting scenes cos he can acrobat
- i like yamada's character in the show, but again, they're just trying to promote him. =x
- daiki is quite calafare :/

my fav character in the show.
the baddie teacher. xD

show done!
ninkyo next.

muse

2009-11-05T10:23:00.001+08:00

i am just so excited on anticipating the possible Wembley reproduction here in sg!
:D

i will mark down 3 feb 2010.
yayyyyy muse is coming!!!

:)

2009-10-30T16:11:00.002+08:00

my 專屬白板
though this whiteboard actually belongs to AP team,
it served use for my doodling and rubbish writing thruout those two years.
that was wat was written on my last day of work.
and after four months plus, its still there.
xD

i had wat seemed like a real bday celebration yesterday
with the ex colleagues that were still there.
waha. old jokes and everything
:D

sometimes i think gloria is like my part time b/f.
she worries that i'll be caught in the rain and specially brings an umbrella
she buys curry puffs immediately after our lunch as she worries i'll be hungry later at work
and she never fails to make me smile during our weekly lunches!

loves:)

shuu x3

2009-10-27T23:44:00.004+08:00

i finished my show! :D
~~with tears~~

this kid can act well. XD

now how did he grow up to become a....

comedian =X

and im now forced by 4 chinen and yama cfs to start watching scrap teacher

T___T

pocky

2009-10-24T02:32:00.000+08:00

i love my weekly lunches with gloria cos she always brings me simple, but yet loved surprises.

we had a fire drill today.

and the things i grabbed were-
my wallet, my phone, and this pocky!

told my colleague-
"will this take very long? fire also need to eat mah."
:/

i walked down 30 storeys

and i was only downstairs for like 3minutes,

before we could go back up again.

puis.

never knew walking DOWN stairs could be so tiring!
and now i think yabu's super cos he always chooses to hide at emergency stairwells in onigokko.

back to my shuu-ing.

shuu x2

2009-10-23T01:44:00.001+08:00

can i just take leave and go back to work only when ive finished watching my kinpachi series? =x

shuu.

2009-10-22T01:06:00.003+08:00

heart wrenching.

jp

2009-10-07T15:22:00.004+08:00

today i felt like going back to japan
and i take back my words on saying i wont be back there in the near future.

i think i missed out alot in jp.
and of cos im not talking about hsj or jj or hy or yk or even yyy.
its about universal studios, nhk, paying more attention to the pple on the train, more fancy buildings, maple leaves and erm... many more..!

i think im an irritating fickle minded idiot that annoys myself to bits
one day its sydney
the next day its perth
another day its tw
the next week its usa
and today its back to jp

or maybe i assume i own the world of time and money
i should have started earlier on my touring
instead of thinking of tw day and night.
~~tw. i hope that's the last time.~~

there's an option!
i shall write a petition to disney, to have an asia tour for the little mermaid musical instead!
so i can pend LA trip to 2011!

and i can carry on with easter in aussie, autumn in jp,
spring in switzerland, and winter...well i'll find somewhere to go.

YAY
sounds perfect.

of cos it will be a plus point if yabu's musical repeats next year in autumn without working the hell out of him.
u can also add in bumping into shane during the easter parade in aussie
err and maybe during the maple-leaves-watching-session,
hy happens to be juggling balls under the next tree, with inoo on the piano, yuto on the drums and yk somewhere around.
oh and takashi too.

:):):)

yay its 345 now.
please wake me up at 6pm to go home.

my everything

2009-10-02T14:26:00.006+08:00

薮宏太-My Everything
詞:久保田洋司曲:Joey Carborn

瞬く星が　瞳を閉じて
風が行方すら　見失う時が来でも
変わらぬ思い　You’re the one
いつの日も君を愛してる

In my heart　この胸の中　静かに
でも　確かに　君の存在が
いつか　何よりも　大切な　ものになってた
Can you listen to my heart

Want you to know,
I really wanna say to you,
That you’re the only one.
君がすべて　You’re my everything

永遠　未来も　ここから　動き出すのさ
Until the end of time, everything

Wow ぬくもりを抱きしめ合っている
やさしさに腕を回す
そして　ささやきは　次第に重なり
二人は一つになる

離さないよ　You’re my everything,
And (you) have to know,
You gonna listen you my heart,
I can be the one for you,
Until the end of time, everything
My everything

dream

2009-10-02T10:27:00.002+08:00

i think im a risk taker
especially if it has to do with my dreams

dun mess with my plans and dreamfulfilling.
i hate plans to be changed ><

^^

2009-09-28T23:17:00.002+08:00

oh my ex idol is getting married tomorrow!
<3

i liked her 14 years ago,
and used to have fights and quarrels with pple who insulted her.
hahaa.

i stopped the craze prob 7 years ago
and most of my collection either ended up sold, or in another cf's house.

but i was still smiling while watching her wedding specials. :):):)

to fw cf *u know who u are!
pls send my blessings to the wedding tmr!
<3

latest (temporary) addiction

2009-09-28T15:50:00.011+08:00

darn i have a 新歡! xP

cute! <3

and he's grown since yyy days

i like his guitarplaying, his randomness, his silly faces,
i like them being the reason for me to improve my jap and understand the shows. hehe.
and im still trying to find another 1031 reasons before i decide that im a temp-converted-to-perm cf.

what i darn HATE is.

his age.

and just for now, yabu shall be ranked second. xP

hurhur, i shall be a cf for just this week!
=)

:)

2009-09-24T15:45:00.003+08:00

just got back from an indian buffet lunch
celebrating a colleague's birthday later.
more cake, more food. yikes!

bitching with gloria n esther thru emails
gossiping with qin er thru msn
arranging dinners with anne n florence
arranging weekly lunches with gloria

oops. should i even have left my ex-company?????????

its a lovely afternoon :)
(if nothing else crops up later, PLEASE DON'T.)

..

2009-09-24T09:54:00.002+08:00

irritated with work.
psychos myself *ITS JUST WORK. THEY ARE NOT PART OF MY LIFE.*

but now i have something else to look forward to.
my weekly lunches with gloria! (:

indulgence

2009-09-15T11:06:00.006+08:00

i spent a whooping total of $200 on saturday.
6 hours of shopping alone really kills me
and i still have more items on my list =x

but i had an ~~excuse~~ reason.
i was unhappy.

thankyou piglet, ngie, keiko.
for the entire afternoon of smses.
thankyou wanjing.
for coming to find me for dinner.

as i just promised myself no more shopping and expensive food.
i am currently enjoying my BK croissant breakfast
that costs me $6.95

blah
overindulgence.

Reasons to miss the ex colleagues

2009-09-11T14:14:00.002+08:00

1. i just got damn pissed with some 'people-i-currently-see-every-weekday' who love comparing themselves with me.
alright, you win ya???
stop repeating the same stupid message in my ears everyday.

2. i just received an email from faith!

3. gloria smsed yesterday and said she miss me :(
and so we made a pact to meet for lunch next wk :D

4. msn msg from kl this morning, who was on course.

5. i feel like ive been promoted/demoted to being a PA.
one day i make lipton tea, another day i scan 20 pages of documents.

6. i coincidentally met donn at the market during lunch yesterday!

7. im having a bad day at work.

today i ate

2009-09-08T15:25:00.001+08:00

a banana chiffon cake
a kitkat
a packet of cheese crackers
a plate of chix rice
old changkee- 2 curry puffs, 1 squid, 1 sotong ball.

and its only 3pm now.

debbie whats your problem!
u are fat.

arielholic

2009-08-31T15:28:00.002+08:00

What is an Arielholic?
To put it basically, an Arielholic is a person obsessed with Ariel, Disney's The Little Mermaid.
So what's Arielholics Anonymous?
Arielholics Anonymous is an organization dedicated to curing the world of Ariel, the deadliest drug ever developed. Unfortunately, we have a success rate of zero. But don't lose hope, you can lessen the effect of Ariel.

Please contact the nearest branch of "Arielholics Anonymous" and join today! You need not give your real name if you wish.
At your first AA meeting you will join a group of other Arielholics like yourself and discuss just how this addiction started and how it affected your life. We will also discuss the various treatment programs offered by AA to help you try to overcome your addiction.

Sadly, no one has ever fully recovered from Arielholism. Many people simply refused to admit they have a problem. Others admit their problem but refuse to seek help. But the dangers of Arielholism are deadly indeed.

TAW or "Total Ariel Withdraw" is our drastic program where you arrange a indefinite period of absence from the world and enter our patented Ariel-free Bubble (TM). Here you stay and survive in an Ariel-less world for a year. At the end of the year you are re-evaluated to see if you are still Ariel-addicted. If you are - back in the bubble, if not - you rejoin society no longer being Ariel-addicted. Sadly, no Arielholic has survived this program.

RAB or "Restricted Ariel Budget" is the program where most of our clients are enrolled. RAB deals with your Arielholism in group discussions and teaches you to budget your Ariel consumption. We help limit your viewing of Ariel-related videos and your monetary expenditures on Ariel merchandise.

TSA or "Time-Sharing Ariel" is another of our popular programs. In cases like our founder's, where the addict also has feeling towards certain others but Ariel has taken over their lives. In TSA sessions we help you manage your lifestyle so that both Ariel and your "significant other(s)" get equal amounts of your attention.

i actually came across this on the web.
cuteeeeeee. haha!
i think im an arielholic.
but im not a cf!
http://www.radix.net/~koalatek/tlm.html

dream

2009-08-27T14:17:00.003+08:00

i dreamt that i was in the same chinese class as X犬.
we were having this chinese test.
i was late, had no place to sit.
and he asked me to sit beside him so i could copy his work.

and in the test paper there was this question
"X犬和X傑常用來跳舞的七龍珠主題曲怎麼唱?"

X犬立刻拿出來了他的ipod來聽
他開得很大聲
然後我也能聽到
"CHA-LA~~~ HEAD CHA LA~~"

even in my dream i was thinking.
'is this an open book test? how come he can take out his ipod to check answer?'

and for the entire morning
this song has been in my head.

stupid dream.
its a sign of being a cf,
plus i sound like rach.
damn.

and all the 'xx's are in case cfs go google for their names,
and my blog appears.
haha.

138

2009-08-25T14:55:00.004+08:00

the travel frenzy is on
and all my colleagues are talking about travelling everyday.

seeing thomas ong's banner outside kopitiams reminded me.
my dream was not japan.
or nz or tw or whatever.

it used to be sydney :(:(:(

when i was young
i dreamt of walking down the streets of sydney with an adidas bag.
tcy-cf shd knoe why

such a dream urges me to plan a sydney trip
(plus brisbane after jaslyn told me about her 5 day getaway there)

give me money
and time.

i suddenly teared.
dont ask me why.
~~just tell me why my eyeliner isnt waterproof.~~

137

2009-08-24T11:20:00.001+08:00

i dont really like people who are undependable.

of cfs.

2009-08-21T09:53:00.002+08:00

i have a silly fren who has been updating me on her idol(s)' news, courtcases, rumours, blah.
i listen attentively tho im not in e least bothered whether they are/will be still around.

she accepts my mostly negative comments readily
and agrees she's a cf so she will mostly see the gd side instead of the bad.

what made me smile momentarily was when she said i was allowed to scold her idol if i would be guai and go to visit a doctor when im sick
for a while, i felt i was more important that any idol she had!
<3

i like it when idols dont come in between.

muchloves :):):)

my mc day two.

2009-08-20T10:11:00.004+08:00

-set my alarm to 10am to watch 飞越珍珠坊 on tv.
-i woke up at 1002am instead n missed the theme song- DAMN.
-first few minutes of the show didnt have jace, and so i fell back asleep.
-gloria called at 1020am to ask how was my trip and said she was at orchard (?!)
-finally woke up to watch the remaining of 飞越珍珠坊
-jacelyn was young ~~14 years ago in 1995.~~ =x
-went online
-found the theme song on youtube! <3
-watched my shows
-slept
-online again
-saw qiner online n we started discussing about 飞越珍珠坊 =x
-slept again
-typed a long email to faith for her birthday
-met wj and qy for dinner at jp.

hates fever.
but anything definitely beats being back here at work.
:(

this is my qin er's baby

2009-08-14T11:30:00.002+08:00

debbie. says:
how r u at home
laykhim says:
busy express milk...like cow like dat
laykhim says:
n also maid

haha. i miss her.

study.

2009-08-04T10:39:00.002+08:00

its time.
back to being a ~~last minute~~ hardworking student.
i don't have enough time,
but i'll try.

say hello to textbooks, notes, libraries, coffeebean and macdonalds.

大突破

2009-08-02T13:24:00.002+08:00

大突破
可見的確是開竅了

PS. 爲什麽感覺上有點像秀珍＝　＝
and did i mention before that i hate pretty boys =S

kobe the legend.

2009-07-24T11:18:00.000+08:00

'Once you have a dream, it's just a matter of going out and getting it.'

one month

2009-07-11T02:28:00.003+08:00

one month of work
im starting to appreciate my (new) colleagues
maybe everything isnt so bad
we just need to learn how to live with people.

sometimes i think of getting out of this comfort zone
and venture out into the world of entrepreneurship
trying to figure out where to start, what to do, what to plan.

driving, diving, baking, jap, travelling, manga-ing
tw, hokkaido, nz, aussie, macau, hk, europe, seattle, LA

i have just so much to do.
remind me, please.

Hi

2009-07-08T15:08:00.001+08:00

whats the difference between

1. Hi
2. Hi everyone
3. Hi all
and
4. Hi xx and xx

weird and non-understandable rules
bah.

搖滾夢

2009-07-06T00:54:00.001+08:00

搖滾夢

work.

2009-07-03T23:26:00.004+08:00

i saw annie and sally today after work.
i was in the packed train, they were outside
i knew they wouldn't board the train
as from our usual old practice,
we would always wait for an emptier train.

and so.
i was so happy to see them that i practically hopped out.
at the same time, i learnt of another person's resignation. heh.

found this pic in my old phone.
yup, its the outcome of our entire finance coming back during the weekends.

what i heard during lunch that day left me in shock
haha.
maybe its luck that im seeing the ugly side of them from a newcomer and passerby's pov.
but no matter how disgusted i am,
i dun want to regret coming here.
again i should reaffirm my statement.
colleagues will only be colleagues.
only.

xD

2009-06-27T02:16:00.000+08:00

煜哥　酷哦~ XD

dream

2009-06-22T12:37:00.000+08:00

i dreamt of jace and sw.
AGAIN.

do they always have to come in a package in my dreams.
=.=

sidetrack,
i just went thru part of a terrible nightmare
thanks for all those who helped me to survive.
haha.

byes

2009-06-13T02:00:00.000+08:00

with that,
i left the place that brought me two years of tears and joy.
i dont regret.
and i wont.

eating, eating and eating for the past two weeks.
farewell lunches, dinners, breakfasts,
and even farewell teabreaks.

ajisen- anne
thai exp- janice, caryn, regina
kuishinbo- annie, boss, angeline, flor
sakae- angel and gu
my fav chicken rice- gloria
coffeeclub- gloria, faith, boss
swensens- leslie, kl, inah, sally, siti
tehtarik- daryl, hp, hanwei
kfc breakfast (x2)- gloria, flor, boss
akashi- geraldine, justina, may

and so the meals for those two weeks were all FOC.
haha. i appreciated everything.

the chain of resignations was purely coincidental.
cfo, me, boss, kezia, glor.
all week after week. hehe.
handover was a nightmare.
but everything is out of my sight now, finally.

i didnt shed tears on that day,
if u exclude the part when i was typing farewell emails.
more of like 101% happy to leave.

i think im blessed.
found a new job fast.
got shortlisted for both the two and only interviews i went.

i am doubtful that i will find a second gloria, kl, annie or boss in this new place.
but i know with me,
there will be the same God.
the one who has been with me all this while :)

jiayou :D

12june.

2009-06-12T01:27:00.003+08:00

happy birthday jacelyn.

ive been watching 家財萬貫.
came across it so randomly.
never knew there was such a show, nor knew jace starred in it.
=/

deyb needs strength, courage, and motivation.
at least for the time being.
:(

smiles

2009-05-30T02:52:00.004+08:00

im chatting with fei.

its 3pm at her side, 3am at my side.
she sees bright daylight,
while its dark n quiet outside my window.

while i miss fei who's at the other side of the globe,
i thank God for the invention of msn.
hehehee. =)

-

2009-05-27T00:00:00.002+08:00

firstly,
i am VERY HAPPY cos SBL championship belongs to dacin.
and its so funny to see all yulon and other team fans cheering for their win.
no other reason.
its just because we all dont want TP to get it.

HELLO 陳建州!
i wish i saw your face at that moment.
-grins wide wide-

secondly,
my qin-er is now officially a mother of two!
earlier than we expected.
but which also means i wont be seeing her any time soon.

thirdly,
we had our first cardiobox class today,
which almost took my life i must say.
plus i got this super bruised finger which i banged against the floor during the workout (i think)
the last time i got so tired (besides being in japan)
was in JC during student council camp
when we forgot to turn off the aircon in the morning,
and got punished to do 500 jumping jacks in the courtyard.
with all the jumping today,
i almost thought i was in army.

tired.
bye.

again.

2009-05-20T22:34:00.001+08:00

u only learn to cherish someone when the person is leaving.
this is the last time im letting myself to get affected by this kinda situation.

i promise.

equinox, jc friends

2009-05-19T21:11:00.002+08:00

the long overdued equinox post.
i hated this hi-tea session.
and wondered why was equinox so highly recommended.

in any case, its 10 or more times worse than marriott.
sushi was unfresh and limited
variety was horrible
icecream was not nice- only sherbet.
they didnt have muffins, and pretty cakes
fondue's hotfudge was cold
only had three types of juice
char siew pau was too bready
the aircon seemed to be not working

wth. it costs us a freaking $45.
if not for the fact we got our bonus that day.
our hearts would have ached more.

the scenery was ok tho.
everything you would have expected to see from a 70th storey building.
i only liked the roti prata- which got 3 votes from me, gloria and boss.
annie liked the porridge
florence voted for the ... bread
and angeline couldnt find anything she liked.

bah. lousy.

met up with some of my dear jc friends last week.
some things just never change :)
all the reminiscing, giggling, flashbacks.
i was such an irritating student
full of rebellions, pranks, and tricks.

but still i loved my first three months jc life alot.
if possible,
lets relive everything again.
:)

this just made me sad

2009-05-11T22:59:00.004+08:00

作者:
裕隆《鼎》呱呱-我愛曾火鍋
發表總數: 共 206 篇
發表時間:2009/5/11 上午 11:19:00

昨晚的寧靜
讓我覺得好孤寂
眼淚一滴滴
道盡許多無奈的話語
這不完美的 Ending
又讓我們再度陷入絕跡

懇請球員別說對不起
因為只要盡全力
這一切都沒有關係
雖然感到很傷心
但也只能接受現實的無情

場上許多不可思議的豪情
也將在秒數走完的那刻起
化為平息

沒有明天了
一切歸零了
這一次
我們又只帶走了遺憾和哭泣
沉睡的恐龍
何時才會甦醒

【王者】的美名得來不易
這樣的【光環】
也許就是這麼【不平凡】
但這個名詞始終讓我們帶著包袱的壓力
這般沉重的提醒
確實存在著必勝不可的恐懼

我們不是沒有條件與實力
或許最大的敵人
是輸給了自己

臉上掛著感動的情緒
是今年我對裕隆的期許
但三年的過去
我們依舊無緣總冠軍
這般揮之不去的宿命
是我們現今應該慎重思考的課題

過去【三連霸】的戰績
我不想只靠著回憶來指引
如果可以
我們渴望【香檳雨】再次的入侵

不想給予任何謾罵與批評
因為輸球的煎熬
並非如同想像般
那樣的容易經歷

【寶兒】與【阿鼎】
謝謝你們的奮戰到底
雖然最後還是成為了【悲情英雄】
但你們的精神與毅力
值得我們效仿學習

【信安】與【學林】
謝謝你們的戰鬥勇氣
即使帶著【傷痛】在場上奔馳來去
仍勇敢冒險的為了這份榮躍而努力比拼
你們的永不放棄
我們 ... 感激在心

【裕隆王朝】何時會再崛起
或許有些人會懷抱著疑慮
但我仍然有信心
我心目中永遠的總冠軍
將會再帶領【所有的裕隆人】
開創屬於我們最美好的連霸之旅

失去晉級雖可惜
但唯有
堅持＞態度
才是最有價值的唯一

無論是否擁有總冠軍的陪襯
我永遠是裕隆最死忠的球迷

不管【重返榮耀】的路程有多麼艱辛
相信你我都擁有同樣的默契
一同攜手堅強的走下去

這樣的力挺不叫【任性】
它叫【不離不棄】

在未來的第七季
存在了許多未知的命運
這次的失利
就當作再一次的警惕

【風水輪流轉】也不是沒有它的道理
裕隆與台啤的世仇問題
就從【王者復仇記】開始打起 ...

總有一天
【裕隆】會讓大家再次見識到
真正的【王者再臨】

sobs.

game over.

2009-05-11T00:47:00.002+08:00

game over
i saved my tears by not watching.

i didnt even dare to check out the results
until naiyun came with the first hand news.
(and info about stupid heiren's reaction)
but what hurt me most were all the sad comments i read.

maybe i could be sour grapes and say.
TB specializes in poaching all the good players frm other teams.
so of cos they would win, why wouldnt they.
especially when the highest scorer for those two days was YYM.

YYM! i last saw him when i went tw.
the person who was chatting with SYJ.
i was happily telling buyi he used to be dacin player, before going to China to play.
and when i came back i found out he joined TB?!

he's just like a temp staff for TB.
what have u all got to be proud of.
>_<

freak.
集多少次失望可以換到一個總冠軍

116-sad

2009-05-09T23:07:00.002+08:00

the championship just drifts further n further away from them.

i'd like to keep believing, but it's hard.
how on earth are u all going to win 3 consecutive matches in 3 days.

:(

*

2009-05-07T17:11:00.001+08:00

am i stubborn or is he stubborn?

piglet said both.
ha.

what the.

2009-05-07T11:32:00.003+08:00

-

2009-04-29T16:45:00.001+08:00

SBL罷賽風波　黑人挺裕隆：籃協、裁判不公！
http://tw.sports.yahoo.com/article/aurl/d/a/090429/6/3576.html

im bias, but he just sounds fake to me

jace:D

2009-04-29T11:25:00.001+08:00

i dreamt of jace (and sw) last night
then this morning 933 mentioned her!

:D

irritated.

2009-04-27T23:16:00.003+08:00

within two days i found out
basketball fans can be just as idiotic as eg fans.

childish. disgusting. irritating.

from the moment they walked out from the court
i knew this was going to be big news.

irritated,
not with their decision, the outburst,
not even with the referees,
but rather with all the stupid comments fans are giving.

btw,ahtiong likes to act hero. lol.

unbelonged

2009-04-17T15:00:00.002+08:00

i think i lost my laughter along the way.

jp/tw trip

2009-04-15T10:39:00.000+08:00

i didn't intend to write an english blog entry on the trip
but apparently i am so sianz now
that i am here trying to recall again the many things that happened thruout those 11 days.

i remember i disliked japan when i was young
probably cos of the worldwar that i had been studying endlessly during history lessons
but yet i aimed to go there ever since... 3-4 years ago.
and yay, i made it there.

free and easy was a big challenge i think.
from the initial planning, booking of tix that almost made me freak out at night,
researching, to the number of times we almost got lost in tokyo.
i think i am proud of myself/ourselves,
that we made it there, alone.
jap lessons were useful, luckily.

and i realised im getting to be more expert at sleeping.
i can fall asleep within ten minutes of boarding the plane,
wake up one hour after that, and ask buyi if the plane has taken off,
fall asleep again, wake up for dinner,
then sleep again, and wake up after the plane has already landed.

damn. i can compare with that person who falls asleep with a bread in his mouth.

the first japanese who talked to me was the officer at the custom declaration.
whether he really suspected im some immigrant, or he was bored and just wanted a chat,
i DONT KNOW.
only know he made me rush for the train that i intended to board.

hotel room was very clean, but also very small.
after 7 days, we still cant find the right subway exit.

disneyland was irritatingly crowded and disappointing.
but i loved disneysea.
the japanese are very polite :)
which made me feel singaporeans are lousy x)

after everything, i still love taiwan :)
the usual hotel pple were used to us and our luggage.
while some new staff stared wide-eyed.

i love sbl
i love cheering for yulong
(and i love cheering for daxin while sitting behind taipi :P)

its been another year and yet my #6 still remembers, im impressed.
and liushengyao. finally =)
oh, and xiaopang is still very pang.

i think,
i still need another holiday! :D

4th april

2009-04-07T00:31:00.002+08:00

they thrashed them.
i wish i was there x)
to see wudaihao leaving the court.
to see taipi's 10 point lead to 12 point fall.

my #6's a hero! x)

distant

2009-04-06T15:53:00.000+08:00

i can feel the distance, even without trying.

avoidance is bliss.

= =

2009-04-04T01:59:00.001+08:00

i hate fans.

hellos.

2009-03-31T16:10:00.003+08:00

hellos im back.
its only the third hour of work and i realise im back to this reality shithole.

a big thanks to you all.
for logging into my pc when im not around.
yar, maybe u don't realise that's ultra rude.
by skipping the step of asking me,
and straightaway getting IT to reset my password so u can login.
i wonder where are your manners, if you have any!

ah. and 2 out of like 20.
thanks for covering like 10% of my work.
lucky i still have my trusty temp.

when i can just throw everything here and disappear!

..

2009-03-19T23:41:00.002+08:00

i get it
pleasant surprises are always followed by disappointment
your words. bah.
and just when im trying to swallow everything down
u came to turn back.

life is like a nauseating roller coaster that never seems to stop.

thankful

2009-03-12T15:56:00.003+08:00

got this new lg phone, which i am still not very sure how to fully utilise yet.
the VERYLOUD camera shutter plus auto-flash irks me.
the sometimes-sensitive-sometimes-dead touchscreen always brings me to functions that i dont want.

otherwise, its okay for an IT-contented person like me.
im not complaining cos its rather inexpensive after waiting many months for the price to drop :)

yesterday i thanked God for many things.
i thanked God for D&D, and allowing me to know Jen thru the comm.
its one of those days where u think everything, everyone and the entire situation is not in your favour
then u realise someone is in the same boat and understands how u feel,
and u go "so im not alone :)"

likewise, i hope God will carry her out of her dire circumstances.
cos u know even when the world comes crashing down, God will be there.

i made someone smile yesterday
and am i glad that i could be of some help
now what i need is strength, loads of it.

time.

2009-03-10T01:03:00.002+08:00

i think its high time to redefine the meaning of life, friends, and fans.

freaking true

2009-03-05T16:48:00.001+08:00

"You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realisation of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.

You are totally dissatisfied with your present situation. Matters are not going right for you and you are seeking a means of escape. Your mental state of mind necessitates that you need to change your thinking patterns. Remember, if one particular modus operandi doesn't seem to work, then try something different.

You are a perfectionist in everything that you put your hand to. You are demanding and very exacting in the standards you apply to your choice of colleagues and friends -perhaps you demand too much from people. That perfection you seek in a particular person is illusive - perhaps it does not even exist.

Nobody seems to understand you at this moment for everything you suggest or do seems to be taken up the wrong way. All of this misunderstanding is leading to anxiety and stress. The situation naturally is not as you would like it to be - you feel that you are being treated most unfairly and that trust, affection and understanding are being withheld from you and that you are being treated with a demeaning lack of consideration. You consider yourself being denied the appreciation essential to your well being and self-esteem and that there is nothing you can do about it. You feel that whatever you try to do to change the situation, you are getting nowhere fast. You would really like to get away from it all but can't find the energy or the strength of mind to make the necessary decision.

The tensions and stresses that you have experienced of late have been the result of trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond your capabilities. You feel completely inadequate to cope with the situation and you would like nothing better to escape from it all and to be able to relax in a problem and pressure free environment where you can do your thing. "

http://www.goldinuniverse.com/

100th post.

2009-03-02T14:51:00.002+08:00

today was the second time this year i wished i could just vanish into thin air.

i had a fall off the bus last week,
scratches and a horrible bruise, nothing much.
today i wished i had fallen harder, gotten a greater injury,
one that would grant me probably a 3 days MC or more.

marley and me was a tear-jerker.
but its another reason for me to dislike movies
i cant shed the tears as and when i like.
sometimes its just better watching these shows in the comfort of your own home.

..

2009-02-22T01:59:00.002+08:00

i thought i had lost that letter
i spent an hour plus hunting frantically all over my room.

well, ended up it was wif wl. haha.

and then i realised how scared i was of losing my most beautiful memories.
not that he matters anymore
but, thinking of that always made me smile.
:)

update

2009-02-16T23:24:00.005+08:00

i think i no longer know what the past memories serve as.
flashbacks that make me smile cos we used to share so many happy moments
or those that make my heart twinge in sadness,
cos i know without a doubt that everything has changed.

i hate getting so affected.

prawning last last sat.
rushed down after work (yes, work on saturday)

i caught the largest prawn of the lot! :D
and found out my prawning partner was actually a 蝦/瞎王
ended up i got hurt, not pinched by a prawn, but cos of a splinter in my finger from a satay stick.
i had quite gd luck i suppose.
fengshui was good at our side.
no time to chat, prawns kept coming.
luck wasn't so good for the other side (the other two) =P

celeb wanling's bday last last sunday
(yes, after work again)
and i had to rush back to work after the dinner.
well, it turns out that everything has been done for like nothing.

大喜事 last monday.
quite a rubbish show actually.
a show, which u would like, if u like them.
i cant stand the sight of 黑人.

ktv last tues.
we sang till like 1130pm, and i caught the last train home.
whoa, its been a long time :)
but still miss the past when i didnt have to worry about waking up early the next day
:(

staff forum last wed.
five whole hours. boo.
but i finished 8 chpts of my book! :D
and i fell aslp during Q&A session. =x
less draggy and boring than last year's.
but somehow, i enjoyed myself more last year.
maybe, its the 心態.

appreciation dinner at noble house last thurs.
jen didnt go :(
but at least all the silly comments with sharon and the other dept annie made me enjoy my dinner

met esther for dinner last fri.
her treat (again)
updated her on every single thing that had happened at office recently
and well, she made me smile (:
she might not uds how i feel
but at least, she empathizes
which i really appreciate.
人間有溫情． our motto for the night!

end of update.
i need some quality rest.

沒態度 again

2009-02-13T10:31:00.004+08:00

fight again.
閻家驊 again. 台啤 again. 王建惟 again.

台啤副領隊陳建州強調：「台啤絕不是暴力球隊！歷經這次事件，我們會更注意自己的言行舉止。」
HAHA.
and thats what he said last year after the fight with Yulon.

*reminder to myself to find time this weekend to watch that match.

missingyou

2009-02-11T22:57:00.001+08:00

i love this song,
but the mv is so.... T_____________T

..

2009-02-09T12:24:00.003+08:00

deleted yesterday's post cos i felt everything i type would be repeated anyway.

history repeated itself, as always.
worked 7 days last week, and even till 1130pm on Sunday.
but im not tired with the work, just the environment im in.

i think im drowning, asphyxiated.
i no longer have that 100% trust i have in others.
i hate engaging in self-pity and making myself like some forlorn character,
but yet.
i wonder how much am i worth.

and as i heard news of the Australian fire over the weekend,
my ears pricked up when i heard the word Victoria.
God bless Victoria, his home, and all the casualties involved.

:(

2009-02-07T00:15:00.002+08:00

i might be reading too deeply into it,
but how can i not be disappointed with what i faced from u

its okay i'll be sad no more
im walking away and ditching all this with a smile on my face
and reminding myself to stop turning back

at least i know i used to be important.

yeah. i was important.
i dont think i've ever thanked God for past tense.
i shall do so now.

inkheart

2009-02-04T22:18:00.003+08:00

caught this last saturday with wanling
i really didn't have high hopes,
considering the three negative feedback from three friends who've watched this.

but whats with them.
i enjoyed this show alot.

maybe its how i like fairytales.
the author in the movie wanted to live in the world that he wrote.
and i do, too.

when everything in reality hurts so much,
we love to immerse ourselves in the world of armoured knights, sleeping princesses and villians dressed in black.
it also promises happy endings for the main characters, at least.

NB:
i remember someone mentioned that the real ending of little mermaid,
was that she turned into a bubble.
ive been trying to find that version.
someone pls help! :(